[sudut]

0540
The alarm is ringing. Wait, is it Friday now? Nope! I don’t have to work in the early morning in the Ijssalon. So I’m getting back to sleep. That $%#@!# alarm….

0715
The-real-wake-up, with ‘15-minutes-meditating’ to collect my soul that has been scattered everywhere all around the world. Turn on some music, and suddenly the nature called, and for sure I’ll have shower right after that.

0815
Breakfast. A proper breakfast for me would be a fried rice with 2 omelettes, apple with milk/tea, but I rarely have that since it takes quite a long time to prepare.
So I pick a simpler breakfast, 2 slices of bread + 2 layers of cheese + 3 layers of salami + sandwich spreads + hot chilli sauce with milk/tea. Not simple enough?
The simplest one would be a nuts muesli + milk.
I have an appointment with Rob at 0900, but this Dutch guy is really ‘flexible’ (polite way to say that he sometimes late… :D), so I just turn on and watch TV while eating breakfast until 0910.

0925
Met Rob at the front of Vrijhof, beside him also our Australian classmate with his always-flat-tire-bike (but after a couple of weeks he replaced it with a brand new mountain bike. Nice-y..). Then after getting some coffee, we entered the library to do our group assignments.

1230
Found some problem with the mathematical stuff. Finally we decided to call our expert mathematician Indonesian friend, but unfortunately he has some lunch appointments with some girls. Well it’s also time for us to have lunch. So we headed into Coop and buy foods. I usually buy frikandel bread + chocolate bread + bananas and yoghurt drink when I don’t have time to prepare my own lunch from home. When we head back to the library, we saw our math-expert friend doing some card tricks at theatercafé. Way to go dude! *two thumbs up*

1645
Finish the assignment, handed it in and went back home. On our way back we met our Spanish guy with his earring on the right ear (or left side? Hmm I can’t remember) who always talks about his supervisor. I think he is inspired by him.. :))

1700
Went back home. I live with two housemates, one Dutch and one Chinese. We have a voluntarily cooking schedule but today is not my turn. So I just playing my guitar or doing some unnecessary things.. Facebook, Youtube, browsing.

1815
Eating together while watching ‘According to Jim’ series. I meant, always.

1930
On Monday, Wednesday and Friday (scheduled days, but mostly happens only once or twice a week): Go to the gym. Doing stuff that you know, and also flirting with the pretty instructor. upss.. :D
On other days: either..

• Go on watching TV, ‘Will & Grace’, ‘Friends’, ‘The Simpsons’, and chatting with housemates
• Playing guitar, editing photos, watching DVD,
• Studying (honestly, the least thing that I would do on this time),
• Well.. you know my unnecessary things..,
• Sleeping!

2100
Went back home from gym, showering with hot water, along with a music from my walkman-phone. After that, consider several cases:

• Tuesday: Berlijn café, for Tuesday Jam Session,
• Thursday: Rob’s-evening-calls, ends up in 3 Gezusters for unpredictable amount of time,
• Friday (once in a blue moon): Drum n Bass at Atak,
• Saturday: Futsal at Roessingh,
• Other days: Studying (for some case it only lasts for 1 hour, at most)
• Special cases, exam and busy weeks: Studying and doing the assignments until 0300-0400, or once without sleep at all (it’s like what I always do in a New Year’s barbeque party, but this time without a barbeque, fireworks and trumpets, only ‘no sleep’ thing…)

2330
This is the time when I used to get sleep. Hmm miss that old time. :)

transcribed by: bayuwindra.





damn I really love this song. :)
btw you can listen to the song on the [jukebox] on the right side.









(do=D)

Dmaj9  Bm7  Em7      Asus
           oooohhh
F#m7  Bm7    
oh babe
   Em7 (F#m7 G G/A) A
oohh

        Dmaj9  Bm7    Em7        Asus
(1)    Why do people smile when no one’s smiling?
         F#m7  Bm7            Em7          G/A
        Its coz their thinking of someone they’re loving
        Dmaj9  Bm7        Em7        Asus
        Keep on believing we are meant to me and
         F#m7     Bm7       Em7          G/A
        Nothing’s stopping you and me from going to heaven
        Gm7  C       Dmaj9
        Sweetest love

          Dmaj9       Bm7          Em7               Asus    
Reff1   I got the sweetest love there ain’t nothing sweeter
          (G)        F#m7           Bm7            
          I got the sweetest love ain’t nothing beat it
             Em7 (F#m7 G G/A)  A
          There ain’t nothing sweeter

(2)    Now we're clever is about to inch just one ladder
        It gets better every second we’re together
        Oooh baby it feels so right, a new beginning starts tonight
        The reason for when it’s on is because of you and me and
        Sweetest love

        Dmaj9     Dmaj7             Dmaj9 
(*)    Finally I can’t believe, coz you and me, 
                 Gm7   C       Dmaj9
        you’re my sweetest love

Reff1

Reff2   Come on now, I got the sweetest love there ain’t nothing sweeter
          I got the sweetest love can’t nothing beat it
          There ain’t nothing sweeter oh yeah

          Gm7            Dm7
Bridge  Now I got that feeling in my gut
          Gm7            Dm7
          Now I need your fire in my life
          Gm7           Dm7
          Now I wanna give you love so much
          Gm7         G7        C
          And I keep on feeling my sweet, my sweet
          Gm7  C        Dmaj9
          Sweetest love

        Dmaj9               Dmaj7             Dmaj9 
(*)    I can’t believe that you and me, we gotta be
                 Gm7   C        Dmaj9
        You’re my sweetest love

Reff1
Reff2


(do=D#)

         D#maj9       Cm7          Fm7               Bbsus    
Reff    I got the sweetest love there ain’t nothing sweeter
         (G#)        Gm7           Cm7            
         I got the sweetest love ain’t nothing beat it
            Fm7 (Gm7 G# G#/Bb)  Bb
         There ain’t nothing sweeter


(do=E)

         Emaj9       C#m7          F#m7               Bsus    
Reff    I got the sweetest love there ain’t nothing sweeter
         (A)        G#m7           C#m7            
         I got the sweetest love ain’t nothing beat it
            F#m7 (G#m7 A A/B)  B
         There ain’t nothing sweeter

Am7   D    Emaj9
Sweetest love
    Emaj9        Emaj7          Emaj9
I can’t believe, you and me, we gotta be
Am7   D    Emaj9
Oh my sweetest love 

"Bay, kok blognya ga diupdate?"
"Eh lu gimana disana? nulis lagi dongg...."
"Bayu sayang, kamu kok ga nulis lagi? aku kangen baca tulisan kamu nih.. pokonya nulis lagi ya. Kalo engga aku cium loh.."
(tentu saja kalimat yg terakhir ini adalah karangan gw n palsu belaka...)

Dikarenakan bujukan2 halus (dari makhluk yang tidak halus tentunya, bahkan cenderung kasar dan tak beradab. :)) seperti contoh diatas, akhirnya gw memutuskan untuk keluar dari persemedian dan turun gunung untuk nulis lagi di blog ini. Tapi yang bikin gw bingung, gw musti nulis darimana ya? cerita sedih? cerita lucu? cerita asoy? cerita geboy?

Well, let me start from the pre-beginning of the journey to Netherlands.

Sebenernya kepergian gw ke negri kompeni ini entah karena kecelakaan ato keberuntungan. Ceritanya gw dari 4 taun yang lalu emang pingin banget pergi ke luar negeri, dan udah dari beberapa taun yang lalu gw nyoba beberapa ratus seleksi beasiswa ke beberapa puluh negeri di antah berantah. Jerman, Belanda, Prancis,... hmm udah tiga itu doang sih.. :D Yahh, intinya udah banyak deh beberapa seleksi yang gw jalanin, mulai dari isi formulir, bikin letter of motivation, statement of purpose, update CV, nyari surat rekomendasi ke dosen, dll dll. Tapi ujung2nya ditolak melulu. Ada yang sekolahnya keterima, tapi beasiswanya engga; ada yang nolak dengan alasan salah jurusan (hah emang gw kasih tanda silang di jurusan seksologi?); ada juga yang nolak dengan alesan nilai gw ga cukup (kalo ini kayanya bener dah..)

Beberapa penolakan itu bikin gw menyerah (maklum gw ga biasa ditolak, biasanya ditampar..). Ditambah karena waktu itu gw keterima kerja, sibuk sampe ga terlalu mikir masalah "mau kuliah lagi". Tapi setelah hampir 2 taun lewat, akhir kontrak kerja gw di perusahaan-gede-tapi-pelit-banget itu, gw mulai kepikiran "mau kuliah lagi", karena gw pikir kuliah itu lebih menyenangkan dibanding kerja.

Kerja adalah...
Living in a box.
bangun jam 06.30 (07.15 kalo semalem abis begadang), mandi, gosok gigi, sarapan, berangkat,
cek imel jam 08.00-09.00, kerja 09.00-11.30,
pergi ke kantin ato makan di luar jam 11.30 (kadang jam 11.00 kalo gw lagi laper banget ato males liat komputer),
jam 12.15 pergi ke warung kopi, ngopi sambil ngobrol2 ga jelas,
jam 13.15 sampe di kantor, buka cemilan, nawarin cemilan ke temen se-box.
kerja lagi sampe jam 15.30, kadang2 teleconference sama rekan gw di austria ato jerman, kadang2 juga telegosiping sama temen gw, Indra (cewe berwujud cowo.. hehe piss ndra. u're the best!), Willy, Dika, baik melalui telepon, email, atau melalui Messenger.
jam 15.30, bikin kopi/teh/susu/jahe/apapun yang bisa diminum di pantry.
jam 16.00, pergi ke bagian store, ngobrol2 sama orang store yang emang pada asik2, godain mbak2 sekretaris store ato Witya yang selalu sok-sibuk-tapi-demen-kalo-digodain (bener ga Wit? *wink2* huahaha.)
jam 17.00 pulang! (kalo ga lembur, dimana gw pernah lembur sampe jam 00.00)
(Semua siklus ini berlanjut dari senin sampe jumat.. resulting me in saying the words that other workers saying: I hate monday.)

Cukup membosankan bukan?

Beberapa bulan sebelum gw abis kontrak kerja, gw nyoba lagi buat ngadu peruntungan gw di kancah beasiswa. Kebetulan waktu itu ada sepupu gw baru pulang dari US, dia pernah kuliah di Belanda dan ngasih tau kalo profesornya lagi nyari mahasiswa. Berbekal informasi yang sedikit berbau nepotisme, akhirnya gw ngirim aplikasi ke universitas tempat profesor tersebut memprofesikan dirinya.. *halah*

Selang beberapa bulan setelahnya, gw udah abis kontrak kerja n skarang balik ke pondok orang tua indah I. Sampai pada akhirnya email yang ditunggu2 itu muncul!

Mimpi bukan ya?
cubit pipi ah...
eh kok sakit?
cubit pantat ahh...
eh kok sakit juga?

Bang. Secara ngga sadar, tau2 gw udah ada di pesawat menuju ke Schiphol, Amsterdam.

Have you awake?
How’s your throat?

It’s now 12am here, so I guess 5am in your place.
Been busy lately, with all stuff to do, go here, there, and everywhere.
Almost everyday I get home on 7pm, 12am in your place.
So forgive me if I haven’t got any chance to call or text you.
Because what is the point of calling or texting if you can’t answer to that? :)

But something that you should know, that I can’t stop thinking about you.
Thinking about how you are: great, well, so-so, or in a bad mood.
Because all I want to do is to cherish and hug you if you are in a bad mood,
to light you up if you are in a so-so mood,
to kiss your head if you are well,
and to bite you if you are great. :D

Well, nothing much to say here.
You know that I miss you everyday,
love you every second,
until the very end.

Damn.

I tried really hard to keep the things from changing,
but everything is keep changing.
They all changed.

Have you ever read a book?

How the book was really awkward at the beginning, with no direction how the story was going to be, no plot, no clue who are the man in the book was going to meet in the journey, even the characters were still vague.

However, after the first chapter, the haziness is gone. Things were going to get better when you know who the man in the book is, who the people around him are, and even the woman that the man in the book had a crush on.

After several chapters, you will find an excitement, fun, happiness, sadness, the moment when you want to burst out laughing, on the other hand burst into tears. Do you remember the moment when the man and the woman in the book had their first fight? They were fight over a stupid thing that was not even needed to talk about. And the moment when they were realize that it was a stupid fight, and when they were realize that they were meant for each other? Real moments of story that you do not want to abandon, and the story that you want to read for the rest of your life.

At the several last chapters, the peak of an excitement is happen. It’s the moment when you feel that you couldn’t be any happier, or couldn’t be any sadder. However, at some level you realize that this story is going to end sometime. Realize or not, it will be still shocking.

Life is just a book.
A series of books, with different people, set, story, ending.
Sometime you can choose what the things that going to happen in the book are, but sometime you can’t, and it hurts so much.
The moment when you can’t do anything to prevent that from happens, even If you gave your life to it.
That moment when all you can do is just seeing that happened,
how your heart shattered…
It keeps happening, and the story must end.
Sometime it makes you don’t want to read another book, makes you want to stop reading forever.
But life must go on dear…
The book of your life has to continue,
until the end.

I tried really hard to keep the things from changing,
but everything is keep changing.
Just hoping things stay the same…
It doesn’t work.
They all changed.

It’s time for me to read a new book of my life,
new chapters, new places, and new people.
But I shouldn’t be too excited.
Because I know,
someday,
This new book is going to end too…

Hey, so how you all doin?

I've just create new gallery in a free web site provider using the album template from Jalbum.

The web site provider called piranho.de. The amazing thing (and the only thing that I care about from the web site provider) is, they give us the unlimited free space with no ads at all! Wow! However, you have to learn a little German since the site is in German.. But don't worry, you can still make your site in any language.

I use the album template from Jalbum. Quite impressive, with so many skin to choose, and with a little tweak you can make your site into the whole photo albums gallery. It will still be nicer if you have a knowledge about flash, and make the gallery template by yourself. Unfortunately I don't know any flash, at least for this moment... :(

Well, nothing that I can say here, just take a look at the new album in this site:

http://bayuwindra.piranho.de

And the credit goes to piranho.de and Jalbum.

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
So far away from where you are
Standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I feel the beating of your heart
I see the shadows of your face
Just know that wherever you are
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased
I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face
I miss all the little things
I never thought that they’d mean everything to me
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us worlds apart
And I miss you
Yeah, I miss you
And I wish you were here

Written on July 19, 2008.

How are you?
It has been a long time since I heard from you.
Are you okay?
How was your day?

I really missed the day when we talk about each other over the phone, made a wake up call or sent not-so-important messages.
In fact, I miss you.

Where are you now?

Things would never be same again.

I miss you.
Your smile, can brighten up my most cloudy day,
Your eyes, make me feel comfortable when I was down.
Your heart, the perfect piece for my heart.

I could never forget the way you hold my hand.
So firm, yet so tender.
Your hair, the scent that beat every flower’s scent in the world.


But I think it’s time for you to go,
for the best of us.
I know it’s hard to be hurt,
But it would be a thousand times hard to hurt you.
I’d rather being hurt than hurt you.

One of us should be hurt.
So please hurt my heart,
Because I don’t want to hurt you.

Would you take my heart?
The thing in me that was made only for you.

Goodbye.
I love you,
Every second,
Until the end.